Messed up life

These days I have been feeling really sad and sensitive. Have you ever feel like your life is a joke? A messed up joke? Because my life is becoming one of that or it has already became. I am sorry for all the mistakes I made as I tend to be a bit annoyed or agitated when someone didn't do it correctly or didn't listen to what I say. When job is done incorrectly, I will tend to feel angry or disappointed but I wont scold others, maybe use a serious and annoyed tone. I tend to cause others feel annoyed at me and ignored me. I am impulsive by nature and I am reflecting and changing that part of me. Its hard trying to change my other part of character but I am trying. Whenever I feel down, I will tell my closest friend I made in new class and it turns out that nowadays, I message her and she didn't reply to all my messages. I wanted to call her or message her whats wrong...or did I do anything to upset her..but I cant seem to do that. I guess I am a coward but I feel really sad that even my closest friend I made in new class is doing the ignorance thingy to me. I guess my teacher is right..I am really a troublesome kid...I am running away from the old class due to isolation..judgment..I am really useless..I really cant work along with group mates...I am weird...these are the words my teacher said to me..: you cant work with others..hence  you join new class..and such things happen again...I need to ask others' opinions as I cant trust you with your side of story. These words strike my heart deeply...I thought I feel deep pain last time...with her words, it hurts............. I feel the real pain. I feel that I am burden to everyone around..maybe its better if I leave this world. For the better... I cant work with others, knowing I have high expectations of myself. I cant call to clarify doubts... I complain to teacher everytime I feel that something is wrong in project. I have burdened my troubles with them. I should stop all that now.....






Sometimes I have to put on my mask to pretend everything is fine when it is not. Deep down, I feel miserable and conscious of my actions. Maybe its my fault? Maybe she knows I complain to teacher about the other group mates? Maybe she knows I give her average score? I think a lot and wanted to talk to her about my thoughts. But I have to pretend I am alright but deep down, I want to cry and break down.



I really don't no what to say..but I am really depressed and sad. I want to give up on life.

Sharing song lyrics I like

Hi,guys! Today post will be a different one. I will be talking about my favourite song lyrics that has been in my mind since forever.

The first song is:

So I guess the fortune teller's right
Should have seen just what was there
And not some holy light

It crawled beneath my veins
And now I don't care, I had no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can touch, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm ashamed
Lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn, torn

 

I like the lyrics being written in this song as it speaks about how a person sees himself as being torn and ashamed. "The perfect sky is torn" signifies his mood as a sad and dark person in his sorrow. He is too broken and that its too late to fix him. He is helpless and vulnerable which is shown in this sentence " Lying naked on the floor".

 

The second song is:

 

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving
I'm not moving

 

This is my favourite song as the lyrics talk very clearly about a man who still loves a girl so deeply, hoping that one day the girl will change her mind and comes back to find him. He will risk it all to be in the same position without moving so that she can find her way back to him.  This shows how deep his love for her and I admire man who are loyal to his girl.

 

The third song is:

 

Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
You gotta go and get angry at all of my honesty
You know I try but I don't do too well with apologies
I hope I don't run out of time, could someone call a referee?
'Cause I just need one more shot at forgiveness
I know you know that I made those mistakes maybe once or twice
By once or twice I mean maybe a couple a hundred times
So let me, oh let me redeem, oh redeem, oh myself tonight
'Cause I just need one more shot at second chances

Yeah, is it too late now to say sorry?
'Cause I'm missing more than just your body
Oh, is it too late now to say sorry?
Yeah I know that I let you down
Is it too late to say I'm sorry now?

 

This song is by one of my favourite artist Justin Bieber. He is my idol as he writes song that talks about his personal life which I admire him the most. This song partly talks about Selena Gomez as he is apologizing and begging for her forgiveness. The song talks about how sorry he is for making the same mistakes and that he is still missing her even though they are not together. He is a great guy as not a lot of guys can say sorry through song writing. Sometimes in life, we are not good with words and there is a probability that we may talk the wrong things and cause others to misunderstand our words, but through song lyrics, the meaning of the song comes out significantly and is easier to express our words.

 

The last song is:

 

Put your make-up on
Get your nails done
Curl your hair
Run the extra mile
Keep it slim so they like you, do they like you?

Get your sexy on
Don't be shy, girl
Take it off
This is what you want, to belong, so they like you
Do you like you?

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to, give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing

You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try
You don't have to try

This song is so inspirational which talks about girls should not try so hard to be pretty or impress someone. We all have our insecurities that we want to cover so that people will only see our perfections. Sometimes this is due to fear of being judged by others and fear of looking ugly. However, this song tells us that each and every one of us is pretty in our own ways. Even if we try so hard, a question pops in our head "Do they like you inside and outside?" If they like you due to your exterior beauty, then the person is superficial. In life, we should be confident in our own skin and be strong. Girls, we should be fearless to say "We are beautiful".

That's all about it. I hope you like my interpretation of the songs and if there is any suggestions you would want me to blog about, feel free to write in the comments section below and support me. Thanks.

 

 

 

 

New trend fashion for everyday look

Hi, everyone! Recently, I am having a holiday break so is freedom for me! I have this deep interest for fashionable clothes and always like to dress myself as a hipster and rock girl. I have been obsessing over ripped jeans!! These are some of the jeans that I really love to wear:

Ripped Jeans









These are the jeans I have been really obsessed with! They are really comfortable and suits hipster personality. I love to rock and look good in these jeans especially in ripped or boyfriend jeans.

Besides ripped jeans, I am also obsessed with crop top!! They fit well with skirt or ripped jeans! These are a few of the crop tops that I really love wearing it:

Crop top with ripped jeans










Crop top with skirt



 



I have been obsessing over biker black boots! Chrissy from against the current band wears it every time even to the show!

Biker Boots




Chrissy!!!!
(Outfit that she wears)
(look at her boots)

Focus on her boots! She totally rocks the chick girl style! Love her sooo much!



The other trend I like is denim shorts!! They  also fit well with crop top!

Denim Shorts






Crop top with denim shorts














Another trend of fashion I like is

Snapback










The other one I like is

Denim shoes







(Focus on the shoes)



So these are the everyday look that you can wear it anytime you go out and its pretty comfortable!
Looks nice and is comfortable, why not buy them and wear it?

That's all for today! Will update soon!

Life in Poly

Hi,lovelies! Previously, I said I wanted to pursue my dreams of being in a performance group.I did it!! I entered this cca which is Chinese Music Cultural Club(CMCC)...and I am so honoured. A little introduction to this cca: I can sing English and Chinese songs and perform on stage as a vocalist.I really loves singing and music and getting in to this cca makes me so happy.In this cca,I can play guitar and piano while singing.Yay!!







This cca has lots of this musical instruments.Finally having this dream!

However, recently, there are so many projects and I am feeling so stressed! Nothing can help to relieve my stress and is like so many things on my shoulders...Someone,please help me! Its suffocating and sometimes I wish life is different and easier.Why is life so tough?
Stress~~~~


Too much things!
R your feeling the same way as me?
 Sorry for not posting for a few months! Its been a hectic week! :)

Create instagram

Hi,guys! Sorry i have not been posting recently.I have been busy with a lot of things.Recently,I create instagram and my username is @angeltanqq.My name is Angie.Hope all of you will follow me on instagram.I went to pluck 2 teeth and it was not scary at all.Braces for now is okay for me.I am GOING to school in Singapore Polytechnic.Quite excited to meet new people and friends.New life,new chapter.In this new chapter,I want to have lots of friends and erase away all the bad memories.NO dramas and more fun.Its hard to fit in but i will try.Haha..life is too short to be sad and worry.Have fun.

Secrets

Recently,I found out that many people had their own inner stories to tell.When you look at one person,you will immediately think that the person is so carefree and relaxed that there is completely nothing  bothering her.However,when you talk to her,you will find that not everyone is like that.Everyone,regardless of how beautiful and carefree you are,you will still experience lots of things and there are many obstacles in their lives.Just by looking at them is completely judging but if you deeply understand them,you will understand their personal story and sadness within them.Not everyone is happy.Even if they appear to be happy,but you know,its just a pretence and like a mask covering the whole true story behind her eyes.For me,I put on a smile everytime even though i have low self esteem of my teeth.You may thought that i am proud of teeth and smile.But behind me,I actually have a fear of smiling widely because I am so scared of people insulting my teeth.This is my inner secret.That is a little introduction to secrets.see ya!

A day at the dentist

One day ago,I went to the dentist and guess what:I overcame my fear of going to the dentist.At first,I went alone to the dentist and I was terribly scared of it that i thought of escaping from it.But,I sum up my courage and went into the dentist room.The dentist chair looked so scary with all the equipment beside it.However,when the dentist was washing my teeth,I felt pretty comfortable and relaxed.Nothing serious and pain happening to me.Yay,I overcame it.Next,I consulted on my teeth for braces and the dentist recommended me a few types of braces to wear.I am going to have my braces and so excited to see my perfect and beautiful teeth.I just want to say that if you have any fear,overcome and face the fear with courage.It doesnt seem that bad so give it a try.Dont regret till the end.That all i want to say.see ya!

Chinese New Year

Chinese New year had passed so quickly and now,its just another day.Chinese New Year is a festive season where everyone gets to bond and talk about the recent things in their lives.This year,it was pretty boring,I guess?Day 1,I went to my grandma house to eat reunion dinner which was steamboat.Every year,Chinese New Year is a time where we sit down and update about work and studies while having steamboat.Steamboat is nice as i can get to eat abalone and different kinds of food.Steamboat is something that we can put the ingredients we like into a hotplate(I dont know what is that) and let it boil.Next,after eating,I talked to my grandma and its been so long since i had seen my grandma.I spent time with my cousins too and it was quite fun as they were still quite young.Also,there is lao yu seng which is a salad mixing with salmon,carrot and different stuffs.I am not really a fan of that.Days went by so fast.I got a little frustrated when my aunts kept on asking me whether i wanted to put braces.I mean,you dont have to judge  someone because of their teeth,right?Actually,I was pretty upset that i had not a nice teeth but doesnt mean you have to point it out?Dont they know that by saying this,it lowers my self esteem and makes me feel upset?I am afraid of speaking so widely and scared that people will see my teeth.Flaw:my teeth.Tomorrow,i am going to see the dentist.Going to straighten my teeth when time gets closer.

Insults and haters

Last few years,I was quite sad and depressed because of lots of incidents happening just at the flick of the moment.When i was in secondary 1,I had faced with crushes drama and people insulting me.I am sure lots of teenage girls are facing the same problem as me.That time was my darkest hour of my life because i didnt know what to do and i was lost.I was afraid to face everyone and i was constantly denying everyone rumours of liking my crush and hiding at one corner.I was soo scared of others opinion of me and afraid that my crush would not like me because you know,I am a nerd.Well basically,i am not because once you get to know me,I dont really care about studies and i like to have fun in life.When he realised i like him,he started to put a distance between us and all of his friends were constantly teasing me.I once thought that me and him had something electrifying as we currently had something magical but it was destroyed when i had a fight with him.I was sorry for that incident but i was also hurt and sad.For now,i had moved on with my life and tried my best to forget all the memories i had.(Bad ones)I have learnt to keep my secrets when it comes to crushes and promise myself not to tell anyone.I made a bad mistake of telling my best friend who happened to betray me and somehow the secret of me liking him was revealed and that he knew about this.I was carrying a burden on my shoulders,afraid to see him looking at me that way and scared to meet his friends.I was soo frustrated with my friends teasing me about him.So for now,its been so many years and i have learnt to put down whatever feelings i have and think about the happy moments in my life.I know its hard and i need time to heal the pain but it will gradually fade into nothing.Just hold on to something in life that are worth it and makes you feel that that is the reason you want to live.Insults and haters were what i had during my secondary school life but i overcame it and be a strong person.It was hard and during that time,my parents were the ones who accompanied me and gave me soo many advice.Haters gonna hate,but you are going to shake it off.Dont let any mean things get to you,be strong and confirdent.You are BEAUTIFUl in your own ways! Continue your passion in life and dont let haters stop you.





Taylor swift song(Shake it off):

Cause the players gonna play, play, play, play, play
And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate
Baby, I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off
Heart-breakers gonna break, break, break, break, break
And the fakers gonna fake, fake, fake, fake, fake
Baby, I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off

That is a little about me.See ya! Sorry for not blogging often..i will try to blog as much as i can these few days.Sorry.

Cherishing life

Sorry guys for not blogging these few days as i am currently filled with work and is so busy.These few days left me thinking that life is really important and that we must cherish every single day of our life.Everyday waking up in the morning is a blessing to me as I am healthy and way to start a new fresh life.Recently,I read one article about a girl who has fragile bones and she went through tons of operations that she was tired of feeling sick and she envied teenage girls who could have a normal life.Normal life means having fun with their best friends, sharing inner jokes and having a healthy body.I reflected a lot and thought about how fragile life is.Anything can happen especially accident.Cherish every moment of your life and make sure to do what you want to do before its too late.I cherish life by appreciating the efforts my parents made.My mother is beautiful and loving.Even though i always quarrel with her,she never once stop loving me for who i am and sacrifices lots of things for me.I am really touched.Everything that she does is all for me and my family.If you are afraid to say all your feelings to her,show through actions.

Feelings for a guy:
Dont be afraid to let out your emotions and feelings to someone esp a guy.You only live once so grab every opportunity you have to tell your feelings to the guy you love.I read one story of a guy who love the girl deeply but in the end,he chooses to leave as both sides(girl and guy)dont dare to share their feelings and thoughts to each other and he chooses to assume that he does it for the sake of the girl but is not.The girl is also hurting too and both of them are broken and cannot move on.Sometimes expressing your feelings out is not a bad thing,its hard i know but put on some courage and confess your feelings.(it doesnt hurt to do that).

Cherish your life with the people you loved(family,boyfriends,friends).Let out all your emotions and thoughts and you will live your life with no regrets! This way,you will be happy.

Will update more things so hope you will continue to support me and look at my blog!

New songs

Recently,Fifth harmony released reflection album.There are a lot of songs that are nice and makes you feel like booty popping.One of the songs is Like Mariah.The song is so beautiful and nice,especially the part where the chorus is:

Your loving takes me higher, you set my heart on fire
When you touch my body got me singing like Mariah
There is no denying, your kisses keep me flying
When you touch by body got me signing like Mariah
Singing like Mariah

I like where Camila sings:

Love it when you call me baby
When you're lighting up my phone
Makes me want you like I'm crazy
I'm running home, I'm running home
Just to hear your heart beat
You're so sweet like honeycomb
Got to have you near me
You're the best I've ever known

The lyrics in the song is so deep and brings out the whole meaning of the song about loving one person and the person makes you feel that way.I love how fifth harmony add Mariah in the lyrics and that they respect her(Legend).

Another song is Brave, Honest Beautiful.The song makes you wanna get up and dance and sing all night long and is suitable for sleepovers with your best friends.The lyrics goes like this:

You can dance like Beyoncé
You can shake like Shakira
Cause you're brave
Yeah, you're fearless
And you're beautiful, you're beautiful
So whine like Rihanna
Go and pose like Madonna
Cause you're brave
Yeah, you're honest
And you're beautiful, you're beautiful, girl

This part is the nicest,in my opinion as they include Beyonce,Shakira(people who have beautiful voices and are Queens).This song is also inspirational for teenage girls as everyone is fearless and strong that they are beautiful.

Another song is everlasting love.That song is light and sweet to me."Everlasting Love" is a beautiful pop ballad about the best feeling in the world: love..The lyrics goes like this:

You're my ever- everlasting love
My ever- everlasting love
And I'm never ever giving up
'til you're laying next to me
I'm lookin' for that ever- everlasting love
Forever ever kind of touch
And I'll never ever get enough
Baby, we were meant to be

These three songs are the nicest and best songs to me.

Another song from the beautiful Megan Nicole is Courageous.The song is really inspirational and words hold a very deep meaning in it.Be Strong and Brave,girls! The lyrics goes:

We're all made of many pieces
A million emotions
Every shade and every color in the world
You are perfectly imperfect
Thinking you're broken
Never knowing just how much you're really worth

Oh but I can see
See your spirit shining bright
Like a beautiful mosaic
A kaleidoscope of light

Even if the sky comes falling down
No one's standing in your way
They can't stop you now
Spread your wings and fly above the clouds 'cause you are
Courageous, courageous, courageous
Oo oh 
Courageous, courageous, courageous
I know that's what you are

I love this song and have been replaying this song again and again.The meaning of the song is to be brave and that you are worth everything.

Another song from Maddi Jane is Yellow Flicker beat(a cover).The song has high and low notes and the voice has a secretive sound to it.The song is awesome and beautiful.The lyrics goes:

This is the start of how it ends
They used to shout my name,
And now they just whisper it
We rip the star,
We came in through the sun moving
Through the ground
Red yellow flicker beat sparking up
My heart
Can't you see this light is a work of
Art
Yellow flicker beat sparking up my
Heart
Sparking up my heart
Sparking up my heart
Ahhh ooh hemm

These few songs are the ones i like the BEST! Go check out their songs and like it.Its amazing and beautiful.That is a little about music.See ya! Will be blogging often but last few days i have been busy.

Feelings and emotions

All of us have feelings.Feelings are vulnerable and fragile.If we hear one emotional song,there goes the tears pooling from our eyes and us feeling so emotional and sad.That is us,humans.Sometimes i cant control the way i feel,even seeing an eye candy from afar can bring us many emotions like blushing,shy,giggling,heart soaring high up in the sky.In the past,when people insulted me,i felt useless,hopeless and sad that i couldnt think of what to do next.Sad and depressed emotions are what i called the bad turning point in life.When you are feeling sad,you just feel like the world comes crashing down and all your hopes vanish into the thin air.You feel like hiding away from the world and that is what i have felt in the past.Everybody has their moments and its okay to feel that way.When you are at home,you just feel like watching fifth harmony videos and laugh all day and turn on the loud pop music and sing till the sadness disappears.Sometimes crying helps but it brings out too many unhappy emotions that is overwhelming to me and suffocates me.So i prefer to hold it in my heart.(Too much to handle)When you are happy and excited,you feel like you are living in the perfect world of happiness.I know a lot of teenage girls feel shy when it comes to seeing your eye candy.It is an emotion that cant be helped and you feel like staring at the person non stop.When the person looks at you,you feel like your heart flies up and you feel soooo happy that you cant even comprehend.It is perfectly normal to feel shy among opposite genders.These are what we called feelings and emotions.



That is a little introduction to feelings and emotions.Hope you will keep on supporting me and look at my posts.See ya!

Delicious Food

Recently,i went to mac and ate egg mcmuffin meal.(SO DELICIOUS)I love how the taste of the ham,cheese and egg come together and when you start to bite,the smell of the egg and cheese is so appetising and mouth watering.There is also a hash brown and a coffee to drink.This is how i start my morning(a fresh day,a new start).





Looking at that makes me want to eat that again and savour the taste of it again.Arghh..
In the afternoon,i like to eat kimchi noodle as it tastes delicious and the noodle is so soft and curly.The soup and the kimchi are the best things i like about it.Hot and spicy.Nice.


Sometimes i went to eat rice with three types of korean food.
(Spicy tofu)
(Weird kind of bean sprout)
(BBQ chicken)
Too many good food..At night,I like to eat tomato fried rice as it tastes sweet and every taste makes me feel like i am in heaven.

One of the best,i can say.
This is how i usually eat during most of the days.A way to start a new life is to start eating.That is a little about me.See ya! I hope you will keep track of my posts as i will be blogging often.