Messed up life

These days I have been feeling really sad and sensitive. Have you ever feel like your life is a joke? A messed up joke? Because my life is becoming one of that or it has already became. I am sorry for all the mistakes I made as I tend to be a bit annoyed or agitated when someone didn't do it correctly or didn't listen to what I say. When job is done incorrectly, I will tend to feel angry or disappointed but I wont scold others, maybe use a serious and annoyed tone. I tend to cause others feel annoyed at me and ignored me. I am impulsive by nature and I am reflecting and changing that part of me. Its hard trying to change my other part of character but I am trying. Whenever I feel down, I will tell my closest friend I made in new class and it turns out that nowadays, I message her and she didn't reply to all my messages. I wanted to call her or message her whats wrong...or did I do anything to upset her..but I cant seem to do that. I guess I am a coward but I feel really sad that even my closest friend I made in new class is doing the ignorance thingy to me. I guess my teacher is right..I am really a troublesome kid...I am running away from the old class due to isolation..judgment..I am really useless..I really cant work along with group mates...I am weird...these are the words my teacher said to me..: you cant work with others..hence  you join new class..and such things happen again...I need to ask others' opinions as I cant trust you with your side of story. These words strike my heart deeply...I thought I feel deep pain last time...with her words, it hurts............. I feel the real pain. I feel that I am burden to everyone around..maybe its better if I leave this world. For the better... I cant work with others, knowing I have high expectations of myself. I cant call to clarify doubts... I complain to teacher everytime I feel that something is wrong in project. I have burdened my troubles with them. I should stop all that now.....






Sometimes I have to put on my mask to pretend everything is fine when it is not. Deep down, I feel miserable and conscious of my actions. Maybe its my fault? Maybe she knows I complain to teacher about the other group mates? Maybe she knows I give her average score? I think a lot and wanted to talk to her about my thoughts. But I have to pretend I am alright but deep down, I want to cry and break down.



I really don't no what to say..but I am really depressed and sad. I want to give up on life.

Sharing song lyrics I like

Hi,guys! Today post will be a different one. I will be talking about my favourite song lyrics that has been in my mind since forever.

The first song is:

So I guess the fortune teller's right
Should have seen just what was there
And not some holy light

It crawled beneath my veins
And now I don't care, I had no luck
I don't miss it all that much
There's just so many things
That I can touch, I'm torn

I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I'm ashamed
Lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn, torn

 

I like the lyrics being written in this song as it speaks about how a person sees himself as being torn and ashamed. "The perfect sky is torn" signifies his mood as a sad and dark person in his sorrow. He is too broken and that its too late to fix him. He is helpless and vulnerable which is shown in this sentence " Lying naked on the floor".

 

The second song is:

 

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

'Cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving
I'm not moving

 

This is my favourite song as the lyrics talk very clearly about a man who still loves a girl so deeply, hoping that one day the girl will change her mind and comes back to find him. He will risk it all to be in the same position without moving so that she can find her way back to him.  This shows how deep his love for her and I admire man who are loyal to his girl.

 

The third song is:

 

Ooh, ooh
Ooh, ooh
You gotta go and get angry at all of my honesty
You know I try but I don't do too well with apologies
I hope I don't run out of time, could someone call a referee?
'Cause I just need one more shot at forgiveness
I know you know that I made those mistakes maybe once or twice
By once or twice I mean maybe a couple a hundred times
So let me, oh let me redeem, oh redeem, oh myself tonight
'Cause I just need one more shot at second chances

Yeah, is it too late now to say sorry?
'Cause I'm missing more than just your body
Oh, is it too late now to say sorry?
Yeah I know that I let you down
Is it too late to say I'm sorry now?

 

This song is by one of my favourite artist Justin Bieber. He is my idol as he writes song that talks about his personal life which I admire him the most. This song partly talks about Selena Gomez as he is apologizing and begging for her forgiveness. The song talks about how sorry he is for making the same mistakes and that he is still missing her even though they are not together. He is a great guy as not a lot of guys can say sorry through song writing. Sometimes in life, we are not good with words and there is a probability that we may talk the wrong things and cause others to misunderstand our words, but through song lyrics, the meaning of the song comes out significantly and is easier to express our words.

 

The last song is:

 

Put your make-up on
Get your nails done
Curl your hair
Run the extra mile
Keep it slim so they like you, do they like you?

Get your sexy on
Don't be shy, girl
Take it off
This is what you want, to belong, so they like you
Do you like you?

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to, give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing

You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try, try, try, try
You don't have to try
You don't have to try

This song is so inspirational which talks about girls should not try so hard to be pretty or impress someone. We all have our insecurities that we want to cover so that people will only see our perfections. Sometimes this is due to fear of being judged by others and fear of looking ugly. However, this song tells us that each and every one of us is pretty in our own ways. Even if we try so hard, a question pops in our head "Do they like you inside and outside?" If they like you due to your exterior beauty, then the person is superficial. In life, we should be confident in our own skin and be strong. Girls, we should be fearless to say "We are beautiful".

That's all about it. I hope you like my interpretation of the songs and if there is any suggestions you would want me to blog about, feel free to write in the comments section below and support me. Thanks.